Most recently I have been learning what it means to truly know who I am in Christ. I have also been learning what it means to be content with those who do not know me for me.
This can be exceptionally difficult when others are bent on their one idea of whom you are without actually getting to know you. I understand that much of our perspectives of each other are bent towards what we have heard from others. This can be either beneficial or more of a hindrance depending on whether the words spoken about you were formed from truthful or lying lips. Most of those who spend time with you, know you, and they are going to be able to decipher between a truth and a lie about you.
I have experienced both as have the rest of us. What is most interesting to me is how often we do this towards God as well. We hear this or that happening. God did this. God did that. Depending on how often we spend time with Him will determine greatly how we perceive what we believe about what others are saying about Him. If we are rarely praying, rarely reading the Bible, and only spending time with Him at church, I can guarantee you that doubts can set in about His character because you do not know Him that well. I also guarantee you that when you have a shallow relationship with God, the Truth and Love from God dwindles out of your life slowly, and one does not even realize that instead of swimming in an ocean of His Love and Truth, you are only stepping in puddles of what is left.
Many years ago, I remember standing in puddles. I did not like what I saw. I felt lonely, sad, and weak. The reason for the way that I felt came from the fact that I did not know God on an intimate level. Instead of talking to Him everyday, sacrificing my time to spend with only Him, and giving up my own life to obey Him, I was being selfish and stubborn (I was also believing lies about Him and lies about myself). In that selfish, stubborn, confused state, I did not realize how I was robbing myself of the joy, freedom, peace, and love that God wanted me to live in every day.
Now that I am swimming in this ocean, I have found that living life is worth every second. There is no time to lose and no talent that should be left hidden for the Lord. He is ready and willing to take you in. He wants to show you His heart full of Love for you. There is no depth, nor height that can separate you from His Love!
Romans 8:38-39 states:
38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers,
39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. (ESV)